Hey i'm back blogging.
Yup after the performance had come to an end, i can finally go home early for once, although this shouldn't be the case since i'm SUPPOSED to go for physics S paper lecture today. But then as usual, i din go lah... haha =)
To think of it i don't mind being barred from s paper by my CT as long as i can get back the refund, which is obviously impossible.
so 还是要硬着头皮去考 s paper. Why i make my life so miserable?

Then today is very very terrible. My CT keep calling me, liqian and nf and soonhock also to answer all those vocab question. And he requested for more remedial lessons, AND this means i have to stay back on friday! ARGG!! the worst part is he repeated the whole analogy again for the third time (for liqian is the 4th time, so poor thing)
I think by now i can memorise the whole story.

AUGGY:
You all must improve your GP. All this are basic grammar. Must read actively... Right, xueyi? liqian also ... nf... (yup he will keep calling our names)

I know some of you all are doing well for your 4 A levels subject. I'm sure you all will flare for your core subject. Getting an A is not a problem for you all, at the most a B. Some of you all even taking s papers for 2 sciences. But what about GP.
You all don't want to at the end of Feb next yr, or early March, when you come back to school and receive your result slips. Okay, 4 As, S paper, Merit or Distinction, S paper Merit or Distinction. Then you look at GP. How much you are going to get for GP. What will i say to you?
Without passing GP, the cert is not a full A level cert. You all must at least pass GP...


Can you imagine, exactly the same analogy, the same phrasing, i've heard 3 times ever since last fri? I bet tml i'm going to get another one...


Oh yah, PohJee keep having discomfort in the spine area, then today it got worse. One side of her body totally numb and cannot move at all. In the end she had to go home early and she walk very very slowly. Message her and ask her to take care ba. she has to stay at home for the next 3 days...

i didn't know changing a pair of specs can cause so much commotion. joey insisted that she started the trend (fine, i accept that) and xingyao said i copied him. there must be something wrong with his eyes. how can my specs be the same as his? but seriously, it's time for a change and maybe that's why i think that i look quite refreshing in my new specs.

these few days were spent doing preparation work for service learning tomorrow. we'll be singing songs for the patients in the hospice and my group can't sing! we were loud enough but don't think we were in tune, especially weiling and myself, struggling to find the range we're comfortable with. eventually, both of us ended up singing the guys' pitch. muahaha. after the service learning prep, i chiong1 to westmall to meet up with yj. she's so kind to accompany me to the specs shop (my new specs was rather loose). as i was walking to the 173 bus stop, this woman suddenly approached me and wanted me to help her take free biscuits from the people distributing it. omg, i can't tell you how shocked i was to hear that. in the end, i had to walk a couple of rounds to get the biscuits for her. well, can this be considered a good deed?

and then another very weird thing happened. xy called me after i just reached home and asked if she should go for some cell group thing. she wasn't feeling well (more of over-exhaustion i guess) and obviously i told her not to go since she was tired. and she asked if she can go _ _ _ _ _ _ _. isn't that weird?

ps: almost forgot about another weird thing that happened. i finally wrote an entry in the diary.
ppss: lee hom's taiwan live concert dvd coming out soon. someone, pleeease get my hint...



weiling drew this during her gp tuition. i'm the cute girl at the centre.

forgot to bring my wallet to sch today.. haix.. i thought i lost it cos in my impression i didn't put it in my table.. and the only other place it'd be in would be my bag.. but obviously it's not.. in the end when i went home i thought i really lost it until i emptied a plastic bag by accident and it was inside.. haha.. another proof that i'm getting dumber by the minute.. yvette asked me a mcq qn from the phy bt.. a qn that i miraculously calculated correctly during the test and got it right.. now i can't solve it.. i get some stupid eqn that doesn't make sense.. mg=mg/2??

i was waiting for my dad at clementi interchange to come fetch me when i was approached by this person who wanted me to donate $2.. i told him i didn't bring my wallet.. apparently he didn't believe me cos he still tried to persuade me, saying surely i can donate $2.. i told him the same thing then he left.. i was thinking like why can't he believe me? then i realised it's hard to convince ppl that you don't have your wallet when you're carrying a bengawan solo cake.. but i got it from a redemption voucher!! so i guess next time ppl tell me the same thing i'll believe them.. haha..

my parents were telling me yesterday that there are only 100+ days to a levels and i should start working hard.. chong1 ci4 they say.. but doesn't this normally mean the last preparations? for my standard i have to start studying all over again, not just revise and prepare.. and my mum was saying like it's the last lap.. we've studied for 12 years just for this exam blah blah blah.. just run the last lap and stuff like that.. i told her there's no road in front of me liao, if i continue running i'd get injured.. haha.. i guess i have no more hopes about my results le ba.. but there's no choice.. we just have to continue.. for some reason.. so i guess i'll just have to finish this last lap, whether it's crawl or limp or run or jump or walk, to the end.. or float..

oh yah had this freaky 'dream' on monday.. near waking up time so i think i was half-awake, and felt something pressing quite against my wrist.. like the metal strap of my watch.. which is weird cos i always take off my watch when i sleep.. so i just thought maybe i forgot to take it off last night.. so just carry on sleeping.. until my mum woke me up then i realise i DID take my watch off.. it's on the table.. then afterwards saw this dark red mark on my wrist!! so freaky.. about 2cm? coincidentally the mark will be just nicely covered by my watch.. at first i just dismiss it as something mysterious.. until i met mel later.. talk so much and gave me so many creepy possibilities.. when i went home kept imagining lots of creepy stuff and looking around all the time, for fear of some scary figure looking at me in a corner.. scary.. so mel and xy, as you all should know alr, don't tell me anything about such stuff or even discuss it in front of me.. i have a wild imagination when it comes to such stuff.. and mel, the last sentence of your last post didn't help..

Sorry guys for not updating.

As you all know, I AM VERY VERY BUSY...
I think i'm a bit obsessed with being busy... Melissa, take note of the announcements is SA or the chapel okay? cos i think they gonna show the video to the concert, More To This Life. Must see my very very cute pictures in the presentation. Hahahaha but actually i think it's too small to be seen clearly.

Oh i like dancing, but i'm gonna back out from dancesport i guess, i'm too tired and worn out to dance another event or elective anymore. I will just stick with the rehearsals i have and perfect my steps. oh yah, i'm thinking of inviting the rest of the 2B girls (our clique) as well.

Then i'm very very sorry, tomorrow (or today) i cant meet with you all to do homework, we have another round of street evangelism after the one we just had hours ago. Anyway it's at bukit batok so yuejia can still wait for me and go bb together. yeah!

Oh then these few days are terrible, it's either i go crazy and too high cos i'm too tired after dance, or i will just suddenly feel very down when i'm alone or sian diao or something. And the most horrible thing is i cant wake up in the morning, so in the end i'm late for the whole week exp for tues and thurs. AND i keep dozing off during lessons. Someone save me, God will save me.

Oh then i'm free on this tues form 1 pm to 5 pm so mel, u wanna do homework at the church together again? Meet directly there la, i had phobia of seeing so many SA students. I think i can understand how u felt when u came hwachong. And pls bring Tuesdays with Morrie, I wanna read. Although i have no time to read.. really.

gotta go and sleep le... good nites =)

i didn't attend school on friday cos i was really sick. really. i managed to finish tuesdays with morrie and i really didn't expect myself to cry so hard just before morrie died. i really think this is a nice book. it makes you think twice about what is the most important thing to you in life; getting a high-paying job and earn big bucks to fulfil material needs, or being in touch with your family and friends. sometimes i really feel that life is so short, and i have spent too much time leading a life that is socially acceptable and 'correct', but in actual fact, this is not the life i really want for myself. at the end of each day, i want to be able to say confidently that i have been happy and i have not wasted every moment of my life. but come to think of it, this seems to be almost impossible. pardon me, it's just one of the days where i get very philosophical and let my thoughts carry me away.



this pic was taken when i went out to eat just now. it's hard to find traditional chinese opera nowadays, but don't fret, the ghost month's coming soon.

i'm totally fine now!! haha.. who cares anw.. it's not a levels yet.. but i thought i still had time to improve slowly.. but apparently not.. so maybe was a bit shakened.. haha.. hey mel don't be too upset too.. let's work hard tgt k? :) i think my teachers don't place much hope in me so they won't expect too much out of me too.. so mel you still have a chance!!
saturday had a nice day playing bridge.. hope hf had a nice day!! :)

yesterday was the most horrendous moment of my life. it was supposed to be a happy one. it really set me thinking if having a physical defect was really my fault. the whole matter was so blown up that even myself couldn't believe i actually broke down because of that. it was definitely not tears of sadness, it was just a feeling of unfairness surging within me. now, i'm just going to put all these unhappy things aside.

but i guess everything has its own reason to happen. it was meant for me to learn something out of it and grow to be a better person. well, at least i had a good laugh when mingfong and weiling took turns to spill coke and water into their bags, just right after watching 'just my luck'. well, it's true, just our luck.

in addition to all the misery (for this whole week), we got the class photo shoot and i was at my ultimate pathetic state. i don't know, i just don't have the mood to take photos so i'm quite sure i'll look ultimately pathetic in the college mag.

and plus plus, i lost my bet with XINGYAO (thought portugal and c.ronaldo would win), so i had to treat him to teh-bing. i was supposed to drink that, but it wasn't meant to be. never mind, we'll bet again. i'll win this time.

yj, don't be too disappointed. just don't give up trying and work harder next time. my case is the same as yours and my teacher even told me that she expected more from me when she was giving back the papers. well, what can i say right?

suddenly realised xy has not been updating this blog frequently. she should be warned.

ps: oh now i know why i have been down on my luck this week. i dreamt about lee hom dying on sunday. the dream was so real that i practically woke up thinking he was really dead. it was an omen. a terribly bad one.

i was right about my bt results.. i think it's even worse than bt 1, which i thought was impossible.. this proves the saying "nothing is impossible".. i'm not going to mention any reasons, or rather excuses.. just dun talk to me abt it.. if i break down in front of you, it's your responsibility..

i have a high tolerance level, but low for controlling myself and my tears..

sorry if my attitude is cold, i'm in a bad mood so forgive me.. i'll be back to normal very soon.. like at the end this post..

haix.. so sad.. didn't get to play monopoly in the end.. we were watching vcd "cutting the edge 2".. it's quite nice.. haha.. but i didn't get to play my monopoly.. haix.. but the bbq was nice.. and the choc fudge cake!! hmm.. haha.. very long never eat cake liao.. growing fat again.. before the bbq my cousin came over earlier wanted to play monopoly but only 2 ppl.. so in the end ended up talking crap.. it was fun tho..

I HATE BUGS!! EWW.. i'm seeing bugs everywhere.. in my room, my parents' room, the toilet, EVERYWHERE!! yucks.. i can't stand it.. big beetle, small beetle, huge cockroach, weird grey bugetc.. haix.. so disgusting.. i hate bugs but i seem to meet them everytime everywhere.. so fated to meet.. yucks..

yay!! it's officially the end of the exams!! but i think playing bridge aft exams was nicer.. it was so fun.. but i think i can only partner xy.. partner other ppl i'll feel insecure.. haha.. or maybe cos everytime i partner her we communicate alot.. then wont put wrong card.. i wasn't too unlucky yest.. some of my cards were quite good.. only a few times totally don't have any triump card only.. haha..

wow! can't believe it. i'm having such a great time slacking right after my bts, but i don't think i even did well. the bio and chem papers were difficult for me and i realised i have deproved so much since graduating from secondary school. hope the teachers won't scream after marking my papers. one thing which i can't stand most is how people always think i'm crazy if i think a paper is too hard or when i think i underperformed. it's quite frustrating at times. well don't think anyone will understand what i'm going through now, the mental torment within me is growing. it's just hard to explain this to anyone, even my close friends or even my parents.

haix, but that aside, i'm just going to enjoy this long weekend and start preparing for THE ACTUAL THING. i don't want to have any regrets, i mean, at least i have to try my best and the rest is really up to fate.

right after the exams, i went to plaza singapura with the class and had a super full lunch. i saw yinmay at music junction and she was shopping alone, haha(typical her). and then mel kho needed to buy some baby stuff (think she's... jking) and we started to play with children's toys. it was super childish but i guess it's good to return to the old childhood days once in a while. then it was two something and we had to rush back to school for the college day rehearsal but around five we left cos we had group tuition (cough*). and then when i reached the bus stop my mum messaged me and told me that we were going out to eat. so practically the whole day i was so pre-occupied with activities.

at night, when i finally had some individual time to spend with my bed, my bro's friends came to watch the germany vs argentina match. wow, i bet their screams can be heard five kilometres away from the living room. so in the end, i didn't have much sleep.

but nevertheless, i had to go on a compulsory shopping spree with alice, xy and zy. and it was super fun! trying on clothes, gossipping on the train with just an i-weekly magazine to share and helping xy choose a super bright top for her dance item. and i saw my dream bag. adidas sling. brown. $78.00. how many mac meals must i sacrifice in order to save that amount? 78/5 = 15.6. haix. mission impossible IV.

phew! finally, i'm beside my bed again. and this is also why i only had time to update the blog now. and why didn't you join us yj? hmphh.

ps: donations are for a good cause and every cent counts. but why is there a fixed minimum amount to how much you can donate?