Freeze The Frame, and back to the times we fought on together

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

i have been feeling terrible these few days. feeling super insecure about myself and it feels like someone is coming to tear my heart apart. something bad is going to happen. oh gosh, what's happening to me? i think i know what's wrong but i'm just too scared to admit. ok sounds quite contradicting. i guess the only thing that keeps me going for the moment (besides lee hom), would be my aspirations and goals in life. i guess i hardly talk about this cos many people just like to laugh and forget about it. i was reading a blog earlier on and a phrase caught my eye. it said something like 'you're the only one who is capable of stopping yourself from achieving your aims'. heard it a thousand times but this was the first time i really understood its significance.

ok, enough of depressing thoughts... ok i admit, I MISS XY! you know when i was taking a bus home last week, i saw two very old ladies (probably in their late 60s) helping each other alight the bus. and suddenly an image of xy and i (in our late 60s of course) crossed my mind. don't have to be jealous yj, that means you are gonna get married and have kids. xy, we'll go shopping together till the day we both can't walk bah...

tomorrow's my last day of work... suddenly, flashes of the days at BT and MB came back into my mind. like how i slogged with my colleagues from 8am till 3am to prepare for CNY store deco, like how i was so tired on my way home i thought i told the taxi driver, "There's my condom (when i actually meant condo)!" and not to forget, making a few weird friends at BT. MB was relatively more fixed in working hours. around 9am to 7pm. colleagues there were super talkative and i promise you'll never want to listen too much to their conversations (haha!). i love lunchtime, that's the only time when i could chat with my colleague, eat yami yogurt, yoshinoya, the famous nasi lemak and lor mee at goldenshoe complex. so much fun! my current job is even more slack, cos by 5pm i can start packing up. the colleagues are less sociable with temp staff but i would say that the accts people are still quite alright. it's just that i have to avoid my dad in the office, and sometimes i really feel like i'm his mistress or sth, haha... alright, that was a super short summary of what i've done over these few months. i wrote this down in case i forget everything in years to come. my memory is really failing nowadays. well my plan for the next few weeks... urm... that is... for a change, to not have a plan. enjoy life before nightmare starts. alright, so guys please take me out for shopping/kbox/movies/bowling/sleepovers... date me!

ps: shrek 3 rocks! i love the part where pinocchio rattled on and on... that's cool!

mel unwound the clock to 9:39 PM
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About Us

Xueyi*
+ chen xueyi cheyne
+ rvhs, hci, nus chem eng
+ 17th January 1988
+ Capricorn to some extent
+ Kiddish yet Mature
+ crazy abt everything
+ laughs at NOthing
+ aims to bear good fruits of the Holy Spirit
+ bridge lover
+ and a stoner
+ xueyi_snowflakes@hotmail

yue*jia
+ lee yue jia*
+ rvhs, hci, nus bba
+ 13th august 1988
+ not really a leo
+ loves blue (bulu!)
+ crazy about dbsk and L and obaju
+ addicted to money and soccer betting, thanks to mel
+ hobbies include playing bridge, cycling, sleeping, mahjong, music, watching tv programmes blah blah.
+ yuejia_lee@hotmail.com

mel*
+ melissa gan*
+ rvhs, sajc, nus bba
+ 6th may 1988
+ true taurus
+ loves yellow
+ crazy about lee hom & everything else related to him
+ loves almost anything edible, music* and the bed
+ stubborn like a bull but strong like a bull too
+ currently fighting for MORE women's rights
+ averagethug@hotmail.com

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In short, we've known each other for 7 yrs,
studied in the same school for 4 yrs 3 mths,
and same class for 2 yrs.
We are aways travelling to and fro between Hillview and West Coast.
Our favourite hideout is Westmall

we absolutely love*

+ 东方神起!! *yays*
+ jang woo hyuk
+ sighing
+ laughing
+ music*
+ window shopping
+ eating
+ serious gossiping
+ keeping secrets
+ wearing jeans
+ our past memories together
+ annual bbqs at mel's/ wq's
+ sleepover at yj's hse
+ urm... still thinking.

we utterly dislike*

+ loud, deafening music*
+ people who dislike lee hom (in mel's perspective ONLY)
+ to boast about our beauty (!)
+ crying in public
+ terrible disgusting insects
+ to dislike things
+ to come up with a list of dislikes

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wishlist

+ ~~become pretty~~
+ ~~get a group blog like this~~
+ get a new wallet (for yj)
+ ~~get a new hp (for yj too)~~
+ ~~get a new sling bag (for mel)~~
+ ~~get a new bag (for yj)~~
+ to get rid of obaju (only for mel and xy)
+ to grow taller (for xy)
+ to get rid of nintendog (for mel)
+ get a tennis racket (for mel and yj)
+ ~~to watch princess hours (for xy)~~
+ ~~to learn mosaics (for mel)~~
+ to learn skating (for yj and xy)
+ to learn driving (for xy and yj)
+ to go taiwan, hongkong, korea, japan together
+ ~~to have a chalet in July (for the whole big group of us!)~~
+ ~~to go NUS together~~
+ to master jap and korean!! (for yj)
+ to learn doing things with left hand (for yj)(cos xiah is left handed.. :))

calendar

+ ~~lee hom's concert~~
+ ~~lee hom's concert~~
+ lee hom's concert
+ still lee hom's concert
+ ~~xueyi's bdae 2007~~
+ ~~xueyi's bdae 2008~~
+ xueyi's bdae 2009...
+ still xueyi's bdae in the many years to come
+ obaju's bdae 28th of may (non-existent)
+ ~~yuejia's bdae 2007~~
+ ~~potluck party on 19th!~~
+ ~~chalet in July 2007~~
+ ~~wq's bdae 2007~~
+ ~~xy's homecoming~~
+ DBSK'S CONCERT!!!
+ ~~december outing~~
+ the next chalet
+ ~~wilber's ntu school concert~~
+ ~~steamboat at wq's house~~
+ ~~k box at paya lebar~~